Two Worlds, One Family

Two worlds, one family...quote of my life at the moment :)

It is pretty fun living in two completely different worlds...in fact, I love it. But when it comes down to it, I have one family.

I am back in the 303 until sunday, then headed to LA once again! I am living the life!

xoxo
~B

Executive Casting Studios

Another good day on my end :)

Picked up my brother around noon for lunch at our favorite spot...Tito's Tacos! We had a great time catching up and enjoying some chatting...

Then I was headed down Sunset Blvd. for an afternoon audition at 3:50 at Executive Casting Studios. If any of your recall, I auditioned for a new ABC family TV series a few weeks ago about plus-size teens and finding self esteem...this was a second call for that, where they interviewed me, tested my coordination, questioned whether I was big enough etc. It was a great experience...I was just put on camera in a small studio room, asked a series of questions like, where I was originally from, what my interests are, how long I have been in LA, etc...and during this whole time I had to toss around a soccer ball to test my coordination and also see if I could focus on the camera while doing it...now it is back to the waiting...

I am headed home for a visit tomorrow I believe...hope all is well!!

xoxo
~B

Pretty Woman

Well, today was perfect :) Reassured me of why I absolutely love California...

Mom and I decided to venture out and have breakfast down by the beach, and found this adorable little cafe called "The Galley" right down in Newport Beach...we sat right by the water by a group of beautiful yachts to enjoy breakfast. As we left, the day just started getting better...it was a good 65 or 70 degrees outside and the sun was just beating down...it felt amazing :) So we kicked back the sunroof, pumped up the music, and decided to cruise down PCH and see the water...what a view! We drove right past the shore as the waves crashed, hair blowing in the wind...it was perfection. We then stopped right by the water in Newport and walked down to the beach just enjoying the beautiful day we had right in front of us...

We then went for a bit of a shopping spree! Well...I did :) Bought some adorable new dresses, a pair of boots I have been wanting, and a couple tops and felt like Pretty Woman the whole day...it was just a perfect day. I loved it.

Then we headed home and got all dressed up for a night out on the town...ventured back into Newport for a very nice dinner at the Five Crowns! It was delicious and nice to be treated to a good meal...

Took TONS of pictures today but am way too tired to upload them quite yet...but they are coming soon!

Also, I have a second audition for the TV series I auditioned for a few weeks ago tomorrow afternoon! They just want to see my body type and whether I will fit into the series so we will see...hope all is well!

xoxo
~B

Hot Pink Cardigan

Literally hopped off the plane last night with a dream and my hot pink cardigan :) Back in LA and enjoying be able to just relax :) It is kinda fun having two homes now...definitely weird, but fun! Coming home to two places is getting really exciting! Hope all is well with everyone back home! Nothing new here!

xoxo
~B

Change In Me

Hi there!

I hope you all had an amazing, and somewhat relaxing three-day weekend and are enjoying the start to your short week! I am headed back home to LA tomorrow afternoon, and it is definitely bittersweet...although it's been crazy here, it has been an incredible visit that I wouldn't give back for the world...being home reminded me of what a lucky girl I am to have such inspirational people behind me and in my life...I am truly so grateful!

In light of that, I would really like to instill in you all that I really take your support to heart, more than absolutely anything...it means the world to me...there is absolutely NO way I could be doing what I am doing without the support of you all. But even more, I want to encourage you all to believe that I love Denver and I think it has beyond wonderful talent to offer, so please do not get me wrong when I say that I am excited and thrilled to be out of here...in no way do I mean that this "state is not big enough for me" or that "if you actually have talent, you need to go somewhere else"...there just comes a time in some of our lives when we need a little more splatter paint on the canvas we call life...where we need more adventure, more excitement, and this whole experience and getting out of Denver is something I need to do for me personally in order to find out exactly where I want to be, and what I want to be doing. I just want to encourage you all that in no way shape or form do I EVER mean to put anyone down by saying that I am excited to be out of Denver...I hope that explained a little bit of where I am at right now.

Following that, I also want to encourage you all to go after what you want...but don't be nervous to return home if it is not what you thought you wanted. Do I love LA? Yes. Have I dreamed of going out and pursuing what I love? Yes. But do I miss Denver every day I am gone? Absolutely. Do I miss the people who support me and the little things in Denver I used to take for granted? More than ever. But I am learning lessons, and coming across realizations that I never would have come across had I not gone...I guess what I am trying to say is that it's scary...and we often think we are ready long before we are...but the trying is what matters...finding that faith and strength to keep going and finding out exactly who you want to be. And in sight of it all, never forget the people who have gotten you here...the people who have believed in you endlessly and pushed you to dream...

I guess I am a bit conflicted at the moment. I have an incredible opportunity...but it may not be what I want right now...maybe I just want to be in Denver and enjoy being a young adult with a nanny job, and performing in incredible local productions? Who knows! I have a lot of decisions to make in the next few days...I was not planning to write a blog about this, however, I feel that the people in support of me deserve to know what I am thinking and what I am trying to figure out...

Once again, I appreciate your support and hope all is well! Keep in touch!

xoxo
~B

Crazed.

Hi there! I am so sorry it has been so long since I have updated my blog...since I've gotten home, there has been SO much on my mind that I just don't even know how to even begin in putting it into words...

Between trying to see a million people, doing my schoolwork, trying to just have some time to myself, and having to put my dog to sleep this past weekend on super bowl sunday, this trip home has been a lot more on my shoulders than I expected...am I enjoying it? Of course. But sometimes I just wonder what normal life used to be like...I forget what it was like to be a regular 16 year old, just enjoying being 16...

For such a long time, I've thought I knew what was best for me...and yesterday, I got a realization that sometimes I don't know all that I am taking on, and maybe I need to step back and re-prioritize a little but...maybe I have just been having a little too much fun?

Hope all is well with everyone!

xoxo
~B

I clicked my heels three times...

Sorry it has been a few days...I remember when I decided to first start a blog, and was SO excited to update it daily, but you all know how life gets ahead of us sometimes, and catches us by surprise...

So as you can read in my title, I clicked my heels three times, and I got to come home for a visit :) I was so anxious before I got on the plane today...I needed just a bit of reassurance and now I feel so much better...thank you all for your support! Keep reading!

xoxo
~B

Time to prove to the world, I am someone not to forget...

What a day...I am exhausted, but did not want to keep everybody hanging on what happened this afternoon, especially since I will be gone all day tomorrow again for a voice lesson, and some errands.

So today was AUDITION DAY!! :) I auditioned for the two main casting directors at ABC family, Barbara Stordahl and Angela Terry at Hollywood Production Studios in Glendale. It is a huge building with just a bunch of studios inside...I loved walking in there cause there were movie posters all over the walls, and posters of my FAVORITE TV shows...felt pretty surreal to say the very least.

There were about 6 girls in the waiting room when I got into the studio, and a few coming out as I entered (saw a girl I recognize from Suite Life of Zach and Cody episodes). So I checked in with my name, role I was auditioning for, agency and time. Everyone was waiting anxiously in the waiting room for their name to be called, some girls with their mothers, others without...then the name before me was checked off and it was my time to shine...I entered the office which was literally the size of next to nothing. It included a desk, and two chairs...thats about it. One casting director sat behind the desk watching me, and the other sat in a chair in front of me to read the scene opposite with me...they asked me a few questions about myself and then had me do scenes 1 and 3 for Becca. I felt confident about it...especially because it was my first audition...I honestly, am just proud of myself for going in the first place! Then they said great job, nice meeting you, and we will be in touch. And that was it! The big audition I had spent DAYS working on and fretting over, was literally done in a series of 3 minutes tops. Welcome to my career!

I really do believe that this first audition came at the perfect time...this past week has been really hard for me in that I have been having a lot of doubts, which is incredibly rare for me...I am usually the one you see constantly sure of herself, and confident as ever about what she wants...but I just had this fear that maybe this isn't what I am supposed to be doing and what am I doing here? But today reassured me of all that I have worked for...I CAN do this, and I deserve to be here going after what I have always wanted. If anyone can do it, it's me...time to keep going...

A lot of people have been asking me for advice lately, as far as going after your dreams and what you want, and having the guts...but to be honest with you all, you have to want it more than absolutely ANYTHING in this world, and you must be willing to commit your full self to this passion every second of every day and focus on your craft...and you must be willing to give up a lot...I am in that process, and I really do believe it will be worth it...but is it hard to believe that now? Yes. It is hard work and in this stage, we often never get credited for it...Thankfully, I am surrounded by an AMAZING support system...both near and far...one of the people who has impacted my life in the most positive way possible I think about almost every second of every day just to keep myself going and stay motivated knowing this is me, and this is who I am...Shannon being that person, someone who has mentored me my entire life, may be incredibly far from me in distance, but she is always in my heart...I think that the biggest think I can tell anyone who is going to go after their dreams, is to make sure that the people you depend on are behind you...because when you are stumbling, they will be the ones you need to fall back on and who will push you back up...

And I think the second biggest thing I can say is to enjoy what you have every moment of every day...we all sit around and wish, and dream but we never take a second and enjoy the actual time we have...and now that I am sitting here going after what I have ALWAYS wanted, but missing what I took for granted, there is nothing more I can instill in people than to love every day for what it is worth, and love the people who surround you...we are all incredibly lucky for what we have...a lot of us just fail to realize it...

Time for bed!

xoxo
~B